Saturday, September 19, 2009


For a few months now I've been in a slump... Sketches that lead to
nothing, lots and lots of nothing. Lots and lots... Of nothing.
So... Maybe just need to let go of realism. To let go of trying to
make everything into something final and just let it be. Maybe this
is the pencil sketching era... Oil painting is so involved - the
oil, turpentine, cleaning -not to mention the cost. I started a
landscape last week, gorgeous rolling hills of yellow flowers in
some picturesque village... And it was so utterly uninspired that I
painted it out and threw a garbage truck onto it, literally...
Painted a garbage truck over the whole darn thing....Ick.. Such a
total waste. At least with sketches you don't have to feel so bad
about trashing it. Also thinking about putting a knife to work
that's been sitting around collecting dust. Clears the mind I think.


  1. Creativity is the key and one should not be bothered by failures. Even great artists have suffered from mental block. The main reason for their greatness is that they have learnt from failures and grown even stronger in belief that they have something good to offer to society.

  2. Yes, you are right vinay. That is a better way to look at things; just work on something, anything, and the block shall pass.

  3. I have looked back on some of the stories I wrote (because I don't paint) and I simply didn't like them, but the me what is always interesting is to try to figure out why I thought it was a good idea at the time; as if who I am not is different from who I was when I wrote it. My advice is don't destroy them, just remember that that painting, or sketch defined you at one point in time.

  4. BlueRain,
    They just seem like a thorn in my side, taking up lots of space, keeping me from moving on. I almost hate them right now!! But, I see your point. I guess it is interesting. There are things from when I first started and they are so stiff and hesitant and I think, maybe I don't want to remember it... By the way, really, your poems are thoughtful and well-written. I hope you are pushing it out there for more people to see.